Finality: the fact or impression of being an irreversible ending.
Keith and I have known we are moving to North Carolina for weeks now. We have been excited about it for weeks, but it has not really been REAL to us till lately. It is easy to say "we are moving" and make lists of what's for sale, make list of what we need to pack, make list of what things need to be accomplish BEFORE we leave. Like canning meat and fish, making blueberry jam, or making a bunch of jerky to dry and ship before we leave. Making list is EASY because that is what they are... List. Nothing done, no progress seen, just list. The FINALITY of it hits you full on when your husband comes home and announces all in one sentence " I sold the snow-machine, the wood sled, the 4-wheeler, the log splitter, the truck in town, the fridge and the couches." I cried, in my kitchen, I cried. I was not quite ready to admit it was time to sell those things. Yes I made a big deal, OK I should say a BIG BIG deal about the 4-wheeler being sold, but if I am honest with myself, it wasn't that he sold my mode of transportation, it is that we sold it. Final, money in hand, sold and driven away. FINAL. At that moment while I was crying in the kitchen it hit me, WE ARE MOVING! It will happen. Sooner then we think, we will be gone. To a new state, a new town, a new adventure. Yes I am excited. Yes I am scared. Yes I am ready. No I am not ready. So many emotions in one day kind of makes my head spin. It makes you feel like having a get together every night so we can soak up all the time with friends as we can! Soak up all the time and fun as well as use all the food in our freezer! Though we don't have a move date set, we do know it will happen. SO as we go through each day checking off things on our list, I find myself stopping a lot, going outside to enjoy the spring weather and watch the snow melt. Wear my mukluks one more time. Ice skate on the Hallmark Card pond one more time. Search for icicles. Soak up the Alaskan spring sun one more time, because I know sooner then later, before I am ready, it will be time to go.
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Tabitha & Keith,
ReplyDeleteMoving is always a stressful event but moving is just one of those FWS/NWR things we've all had to experience more than we like to think about. We were in The Great Land for 16+ years and it was possibly one of the hardest things we've done, BUT, that last move got us closer to family which was important for a number of reasons. I applaud you and Keith on your willingness to join another Refuge family and wish your family the very best in the new adventure. -- Bill Kent
I know that it has to be very hard for your family to make such a big move. Alaska to North Carolina is a transition that I can't even begin to imagine. I just wanted you to know that my family is eagerly awaiting your arrival down here to Mattamuskeet - I hope it helps just a little to know you have friends waiting for you!
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